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07 June 2015 @ 05:56 pm
Wow, this still exists. I still like my page's design. My brother got married yesterday, it was a great wedding.
I'm Feeling: nostalgicnostalgic
24 September 2011 @ 01:32 am
Days 2 and 3 of exercise/diet plan successful. Continued waking up at 8:30. Watching Texhnolyze again. Today was my brother's 25th birthday, and tomorrow we're going out to an Indian Restaurant to celebrate. I'll take a break from my diet for that one meal. Of course, it's not like I'll be eating anything that isn't vegan anyway, so my options are limited, but also delicious. I've also decided to give up smoking. Not that I ever smoked more than a few times a week anyway, but still. I don't see anything good coming of it. I do enjoy it, but my health is the priority. Lately I don't seem to like any beer I try. So, I've mostly given up drinking, although I still do have small amounts of sake, my favorite. Do I just think it's my favorite because it's Japanese? No. I don't really like Sapporo, a Japanese beer. I also don't like konnyaku, hijiki or natto. This is a tangent.
22 September 2011 @ 12:04 am
Today I got up at 8:30 and was able to stay awake. The morning was slow and filled with Katamari. I took out the new scale nd discovered that I had yet again gained 10 pounds. After feeling pretty horrible, and wondering how I could change, my friend Kevin messaged me on facebook. I told him why I was feeling down, and he gave me a lot of great advice and inspiration. He was 185 before, and found a way to lose all the extra weight. So, his advice is something that worked. Anyway, I've started a new diet and exercise routine, and I really want to stick to it. Just from exercising today, I feel a whole lot better. It's amazing how much health plays a role in your overall wellbeing, but there's no way around the fact that it does. Tonight I watched Porco Rosso, which was just ok. Today has been a day with a lot of emotions, good and bad. At first I found myself wishing I was reborn as another person, but now I have hope. To gain the world, I will forsake the world.
21 September 2011 @ 01:28 am
Today I got up at 8:30, but was just too tired, and after breakfast and coffee layed down a bit with my light on, and ended up sleeping until 2:30. I didn't do much today.. I watched the first Terminator movie, played some more We Love Katamari!, and later on got some groceries for myself and my mom. I bought a few guitar dvds online in hopes that one of them will get me out of the rut I'm in with that. My brother thinks that between getting a job and starting to teach music theory lessons, I should teach theory. Maybe tomorrow I'll end up working on that some. I have to make sure I have an organized curriculum before I start teaching, and that I have all the materials, and a clean space to work. "Everything worth doing takes work". I also watched The Girl Who Leapt Through Time with my brother, and wow, what a great anime. The characters are so refreshingly realistic to me. The plot is very interesting and complex, but is essentially a love story about making sacrifices for the people you love, and being true to your own feelings. At least I didn't sleep in (technically) today. I asked my brother if he thinks watching love stories helps humans to believe in the idea of love more, and he told me that he never doubts the idea, and was surprised to hear that I of all people have doubts. I told him I definitely believe in the idea of love between family and friends, but am unsure of the idea of so-called romance. He told me that I stop myself from doing things too much because I don't know everything about them, and that I should not worry about that. I think he's definitely right. It's not just about love, but music too, and other things. I don't know how to change that though. Is it a kind of fear? I've been thinking about possibly starting some counseling, just to see if it would take me anywhere. Maybe that's an idea that I could explore through therapy. I'd have to have an open minded counselor though. It's not like there's some diagnosable thing they would have to work with, most of the things about me are more nuanced. Tomorrow is another day...
19 September 2011 @ 11:26 pm
Today I got up at 8:30, and had a breakfast of steamed broccoli with gomashio, a bagel with a good dog, and a cup of coffee. Today I cleaned out the fridge. It took three sessions, but it looks a lot better now. I also burned We Love Katamari! and played that. The flower level is really great, and I love the funny little descriptions for things, and the new characters. I would love to go to a place with a pink sky covered in flowers (if I could find a way to keep the bees out!). I also flew some special paper airplanes for my brother, and ordered a set of White Wings and an AC/DC live dvd for his birthday, which is on the 23rd. He'll be 25, which is kind of crazy. We walked to the anime store and rented the first dvd of Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, and the new version of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time. We watched SAC, and it was good. A lot more humor than the movies, but still with the philosophical elements. Not nearly as atmospheric though. Last night I watched Whisper of the Heart again, and it inspired me to keep trying at my music. It also made me wonder: How many doubts do we acquire, about ourselves and others, as adults? I wonder what it would be like to throw them all away and live life with a truly open mind. A few days ago after finishing Tail Concerto (which has some great music) I got the idea of keeping a record of my days, and living life less like a constant struggle and more like a peaceful waltz.
You Should Listen To: Mozart - Klarinet Concerto in A, KV 622
04 September 2011 @ 03:56 pm

This pretty much sums up how I feel. Living with parents; graduated Magna Cum Laude from a prestigiuos university. Lost generation.
12 July 2011 @ 05:03 pm
Have you ever felt like your life has slipped away from you, and now you're trying to get it back to the way you want it to be? It's not easy..
11 July 2011 @ 03:09 pm
I had to stay up all night last night to take a test this morning (and didn't really sleep the night before), but I got a 99 on it. When I'm this kind of tired I always feel relaxed and vaguely happy, but I also kind of want to fall over..
10 July 2011 @ 03:47 am
Today I watched Empire of the Sun, and the scene where Christian Bale salutes the Japanese pilots evoked a very indescribable emotion that I sometimes get.. it's some combination of nostalgic, empathetic, wonderment, and sadness. It seems to not happen as often these days. Anyway, I hope it doesn't ever leave for good. It makes me feel more alive.
10 April 2011 @ 12:36 am
I'm Feeling: lonelylonely